I think i need a virtual “boyfriend”

It all started when i tried watching gay porn when i was 20 (13 years ago)

Ive always felt straight but as most of the guys here, when i get horny, i start craving a cock

i’ve tried everything except a real cock: fingering, pegging myself, dildos, cucumbers, i even installed grinder several times but i always chicken out. once i even got to the guys place but i left without doing anything.

i realized that i really need someone with whom i will discuss my feelings, fantasies, who will listen to me and give me advices, to whom i will send nudes and will praise me or mock me, to say it shortly, i need an online bf who will guide me into the world of bisexuality

if anyone is interested, dm
also any suggestions are appreciated