Honestly ever since I first got my ass fucked no matter how much I try to not think about it I always crave it again it’s always in the back of my mind and I always end up giving in. It’s been a 2 years since I’ve actually gave into Anal. I have come close but just gotten head or hand jobs haven’t had the balls to let someone fuck me again. But recently it’s been bad I want to get filled so bad I’ve been on Grindr and sniffies every day looking but always back out cuz I end up cumming jerking off to the chats. should I just give in and let some one fuck me after years ?