28yo, with a GF, made posts recently about hearing my gay neighbor fuck guys making me curious and me confessing my curiosity to him. Was supposed to meet up with him last week but got cold feet and never went to his place. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately for me) i’ve already opened a can of worms.
He now knows that both my girlfriend and I had been getting turned on by the noises of his encounters, and he really ramped up the intensity and noise. Without too much backstory, my GF and I are pretty kinky sometimes. Last night I found myself getting a blowjob by my girlfriend while we listened to him fuck. She noticed how big of a load i’d blown, and that i’d stayed hard after as well. She got a devious smile on her face and started to ride my hard and sensitive cock while asking me if ever thought of him. I was so horny I wasn’t thinking and I moaned about how I thought about him fucking me, and making me make those moans and noises every day. How I wanted to know what it feels like to get fucked, and a lot more.
I came so hard a second time, and immediately got post nut clarity, thinking i’d fucked up but surprisingly she was really into it. I told her about how I had already talked to him but ghosted him.
She encouraged me to start talking to him again, but i’m not sure. The post nut clarity hits pretty hard once I cum after thinking about being with a guy and I feel really ashamed. Should I just reach out to him again and see what happens?