Just fucked a large dildo….I get it now

So last week i bought a 12 inch horse dildo because the normal dildo i was using wasnt enough anymore. Also im 23 and consider myself straight, just love anal play lol. But anyways it came in today and I I everything ready. I prepped, I got extra lube, even a towel on my bed. The dildo was one of those mechanical ones that vibrates and has a thrusting function, I got that ine because it looked the most appealing. The head slid in just fine with all the extra lube, but the rest, thats where it gets interesting. I slowly pushed it deeper inside me and I could feel by ass stretching a lot. I even let out a moan after taking it half way. It was a bit harder getting to the base because it starts to get extra girthy, but I wanted it. So after a few seconds I forced it all the way to the base and felt my body shake and my mouth moan like a slut. It felt so good and I didnt even turn it on yet. I could bounce on it if I was cock drunk enough. So I wait for a minute before turning on the vibrator and the thrusting function. That was when heaven hit. It thrust so much deeper i felt my body shaking from how good it felt. I had to bite my tongue to stop from moaning too loud as the dildo fucked be hard and good. I didnt last a minute before I started to cum all over. I felt my legs shaking out of control and I just laid there in need of breath. Now its been a little bit and all im thinking about is using it again. I get it now. Why so many gay men love big thick cocks. I want one deep in my ass rn to fucking ruin me and make me scream into the pillow.