Lost my virginity to a buddy years ago, still can’t stop thinking about it.

I found out from a have of Truth or Dare how big my buddies cock was. I even up giving him head that night, which eventually evolved into me sucking him off almost every day, then him taking my virginity. It's been a long time but I've never had sex with another guy since. I honestly have never been able to stop thinking about it. Does anyone else have an experience similar to this? Dm me if you want the details or want to share your experience.