So yeah, throwing this out into the void because I can’t really tell anyone in my actual life. Maybe someone here will get it, or at least find it as insane as I do.
Me (M) and my best friend (let’s call him K) have been close for years. Like, “know each other’s passwords, finish each other’s jokes. He’s always identified as straight — and honestly, I never questioned it too much. I’ve crushed on him off and on, but I kept it lowkey. You know the drill.
Anyway, this happened like a week ago.
K invited me over for a chill night (he still lives at home but i know his family and i hangout with him a lot at his place). We were in his room, lights low, movie playing, both of us under a blanket. We were sitting really close but again, nothing new. Except this time, partway through the movie, our hands kind of found each other. Just… stayed there.
No one said anything. We didn’t even look at each other at first. But then he leaned in. Or maybe I did. Doesn’t matter. We kissed.
It was soft. Careful. Like we were both checking if this was really happening.
And then we kept going. Like… a lot. One thing led to another and before we knew it, we were down to just our underwear, tangled up under the blanket, wrapped around each other no sex yet, but still way too intimate to pass off as anything platonic. I was the first to take of my boxers and K followed. I was sitting on his lap with my knees kissing him, u could feel his boner growing. He said “hold on a sec” and he took a condom and asked le if i wanted to….. I said yes, so he put on the condom, we got in the same position again and I positioned myself and he slid right in me. K had no experience yet with guys so i took control. I was riding him while we were kissing both super horny, like 15 minutes later i came on his abs. About 2 minutes later he said he was about to come so u got off, took the condom off an started to suck him, he came and I swallowed. He looked at me like “wtf did you just do” so i asked “was that weird” and he replied “no it was actually so hot to see you do that. We were both do tired and just laid down next to each other.
We must’ve fallen asleep like that. Which would’ve been fine — if K had LOCKED HIS DAMN DOOR.
Next morning, I’m waking up slowly, still half-asleep, arm draped across K’s chest, when the door opens.
His brother walks in.
No knock. Just casual, like he was about to ask him to grab something from downstairs.
He froze. I froze. K literally said “shit” out loud, tried to yank the blanket up higher. We were both totally exposed.
His brother just stared at us for what felt like forever and said:
“Wow.”
That’s it. Just wow.
Then K told him to get out. Loud. Twice. Door finally shuts.
And we both lay there like two people who had just witnessed a murder.
Now we’re both spiraling. K says he’s scared — not of me, but of what it means. He keeps saying, “I’m not ready to talk about it, but I don’t want to stop.” And I get that. I’m trying to be patient. But it’s like, we crossed this line together and now we’re… stuck in this secret.
His brother hasn’t said a word since. Like, not a single comment. Which honestly makes it worse???
So yeah. That’s my life now.
Fell asleep in my best friend’s bed. Got caught by his brother. Still don’t know what the hell we are. But we haven’t stopped.
Not sure if this is a disaster or the beginning of something.
Anyway, thanks for listening
(I asked chatgpt to help me bring structure in the story i was typing cuz i cant tell a story for shit)
My dms are open if anyone wants to talk or something.