I (44M) have been questioning things for a while now. I’ve always been straight but lately I’ve been watching more and more gay porn and thinking about what it would actually be like. I’ve been exploring with toys on my own but last night was my first time with an actual man.
I’m in Orlando for a work trip and the hotel room was getting lonely. Hopped on Sniffies on a whim and started chatting with a guy. Usually I chat but can’t get the nerve to agree to meet. He was really into my pics and pretty forward and I was nervous as hell but I invited him over.
When he got to my room he could tell I was shaking and nervous. He was patient though. Slowly undressed me, teased me, stroked me. Then he asked if he could eat my ass and at that point I was so far gone I just said yes.
Holy shit. I had NO idea it would feel like that. He went at it for what felt like forever — tongue, fingers, the whole thing. I was moaning so loud I had to bury my face in the pillow so the whole floor didn’t hear me. I wanted him inside me SO badly but he couldn’t get fully hard though he tried to push it in.
So I ended up sucking him — even let him face fuck me a little which was intense. I tried to deep throat but kept gagging. Need to practice that apparently lol.
He ended up blowing me and I came harder than I have in years.
So now I’m sitting at the airport waiting for my flight home and I can’t stop thinking about it. Not about him specifically, but about the feeling of being explored, being wanted, someone’s mouth on me, someone’s fingers inside me. And me, letting it all happen and freaking enjoying it. I wanted to be fucked so badly and I’m kinda disappointed it didn’t happen.
So yeah, I finally got the courage to go through with it, but wasn’t able to get fucked. Can I get up the courage to try again on my next work trip?